I’m sitting in my room looking at this red frame I have, with that quote hand typed, several colorful strings in a chaotic ball beneath a hand-cut gold star. It was a gift from my mom, during another point in my life when I desperately needed inspiration, and her faith in me to keep me going.  It’s been over ten years since she gave me that framed quote, with her own personal artistic touch, and although I’m weeping, I feel her strength rolling through me, all the years she spent instilling her faith in me, so that in the hard times, I would never feel alone.

I spent the day today going through all the paperwork I’ve been neglecting, for months. I’m trying to get to all the things that “can wait”, so that all I have to do while in treatment is focus on my healing, and keeping my faith alive.  I had the wonderful news on Thursday that the pathology from my latest surgery came back clean, and that they feel they have removed all the cancer. I still will have a cat scan before the beginning of the Interferon treatment to check the rest of my body for any tumor growth, but since the cells they found in the one lymph node were microscopic, I am going to continue to have faith that it was caught early enough, before any other cells escaped.

I’m now sitting comfortably in my bed watching “Everybody Loves Raymond” thanks to my daddy (gave me a tv, and installed it in my room), who cares so much about me that he will fly up here to be with me at any time I need him, and still stand by me when I am at my meanest, when my fear turns me into a ball of fury and frustration, and I become a woman that I am amazed anyone could still love. And there he is, calm, caring, still willing to move mountains for me.  And I thank God for him, for everything he has gotten me through, and for getting me through this.

So Boston Legal is on now, and I am laying in bed, kitties piled on top of me, and I still love this show. So I have a Dr. Appointment tomorrow, hoping for drain/staples out, as I think it will really help with my mobility, and getting my muscle function back.

Update soon.